The Art Of Flipping The Dark Side

Think of it this way -- 

Have you ever wished you could help influence -- in a healthy way, of course -- the discounting, denial and lying you see in some around you?

I know how -- as part of a team -- a WE!

We'll show you how.

We've got the method -- success guaranteed if -- you do your part.

Just in time for Election 2024!

We'll show you how -- to come out a winner! It begins -- on our end -- with your participation in our Ms Class: Season Two, facilitated by Anastasia, its follow-up online Study Group, led by Board Member Jill Catlett

Vetting has now begun.

Contact Jill @

The Best Gaslighting Deterrent Ever

Coming soon as a series

How can I tell you, dear reader, what it was like for me to walk into the first night of a week-end long seminar and for the first time ever have the experience of the puzzles that are me and my life fall into a cohesive, well-ordered, systematic pattern.

And readily in a manner I could count on, the system I had learned there i could almost measurably, on purpose and reliably be counted on to help me define and clarify reality dependably, up to a point.

Beyond that point the system and the method were also teaching me how to engage with others, also in reliably successful ways  -- up to a point. And, if not successful, learning options for understanding what went wrong and reliable fix it options, if appropriate.

Today those systems and their related principles and strategies are the foundations for the Black Bear Mountain Village Project == a potential mental health solution for our times, in the effort to recover. emotionally and practically -- from the pandemic and all that's gone with it for now going on four years.

Listen in too for our forthcoming related podcast series.

To be continued.

Our GAME: Radical Truth-telling With A Purpose

 New Horizons Truth or Dare GAME always had a purpose that never, ever got corrupted, not even diluted.

You Can Always Count On Crazy People To..

Updated 11.13.2022 1 p.m.

..keep on acting crazy in the same old way they've always done before," Groder had instructed.

"Therefore, all you need do to upset their apple cart is apply just enough pressure to keep things moving in the direction you are intent on reaching -- most decidedly that of truth, sanity and stability."

Such is the magic of the GAME wherever and however it is played -- in this case the magic of the House January 6 Insurrection Investigation Committee!

“In election 2022, the party of Trump pays for being the party of Trump,” writes Washington Post analyst Dan Balz....

 "Election Day has come and gone, and the counting continues without a definitive answer to the question of what the balance of power will look like in the coming two years. But a clear message has come through from the voters: a desire for stability at a time of unrest, a call for seriousness at a time it is needed.

The war is not yet over but the battle is won. The midterm election of 2022 has reaffirmed that democracy works and the Constitution of the United States of America is a valid playbook -- even centuries after it's drafting on how to do it.

As Donald Trump Escalates His "Normal" Reactivity Groder's Lessons To Me About How To Transform The Dark Side Pan Out Ever More Vividly!!

 In progress. Stay tuned.

Why and How NH ZOP Truth Or Dare GAME Has Potential For Overcoming Pockets Of Polarization

... and helping to heal our nation's divisions.

Coming Soon!

As Camelot Disrupted in progress now gets back on track after its own disruptions and consequent tangles with the Dark Side,  full steam ahead with a new ghostwriter -- editor, "My Prophecy" is about to be formally set in motion for its instructed return.

Along with this -- you will soon be encouraged to want to find out how -- as a Truth or Dare GAME Movement we -- 0ur conjoined two non-profit organizations intend to take our GAME and its anti-corruption potential to Capitol Hill.

The BIG Questions Here Are...

Updated -- April 1, 2022

I had no doubt, when I initially posted this piece that your deep consideration of my offering to you here would be resisted.

This is the internet, after all! Right? And the era of Future Shock, designed to keep you on the fast track. 

Fast fwd is the gig here. Right?

"Surf the web." Keep it moving. That's the modus operandi here. 

Right?  No time for deep.

Well -- readers -- of one thing I'm certain: my offerings here are not a quick fix or chill pill.

Challenged by these realities -- I asked my dear, long-time friend, Walton Stowell, a brillient man in his own right, artist, architect and writer of many books, who I am blessed to now have assisting me with blog writing, to take up the exploration of those "deeper considerations" with me.

I am intent on engaging you, interested readers, in getting to the "deeper." Walton is going to help me and us get to it.

Look forward to joining our adventure.

Now -- if a generic "one" would want to truly grasp -- and -- benefit from GRAD, even embrace its philosophies and practices, an understanding of its origins and the rich potentialities emerging out of its heritage as developed by the clinical team of Groder and Rosen-Jones, are important to explore.

In fact, should you accomplish this task, you will actually have taken first steps on the path of "exploring your dark side, the adventure of a lifetime!" should be inclined for such an excursion.

Heading in this direction, the genuine seeker of such vital wisdom might ask --  

1. How can such a comprehension lead ME to embrace the grand personal -- and -- social theory GRAD and healing strategies purports to be, with not only an intriguing backstory but one that can also bring ME hope in these anguished times?

This leads to a second question --

2. How can a look back at a prison rehabilitation approach, warranting an updated consideration more than fifty years after its sometimes controversial beginnings, become a guiding light through a world troubled with corrupt leadership and followers, some in cult-like denial, others similarly unscrupulous?

"The answer my friend" is not merely "blowing in the wind."

It lies instead, first and foremost and in part, in YOUR exploring YOUR own dark side and taking up its transformation - lead into gold -- as YOUR own, very personal "adventure of a lifetime."

Destination --

Realigning, wherever possible and necessary, your personal current survival orientation -- not by merely pointing your finger at THEM with all your outrage and despair - the Donald Trumps, his allies and enablers, the Vladimir Putins, the Devil incarnate -- but by redirecting and refining your vital Inner Warrior to use its immense power in ways, yet undiscovered by you.

Intrigued?

Begin your adventure at Humanity's Mysterious Power Source.

More on the way.   

It's Official: Groder - Rosen Addiction Development" Theory's Intriguing and Empowering Backstory To Be Told

 ...fictionalized in Anastasia's forthcoming fantasy, historical novel, "Camelot Disrupted."

The true tale, empowering and inspiring with its beginnings in the late 1960s.

Publication expected, March, 2023.

High Leadership People (HLP) And Convicts Share The Same Basic Personality Structure,: Said Groder

 Under construction

The year was 1980 as I sat attentively listening to Dr. Martin Groder lecture at a two-day pre-conference workshop on survivor-type personalities and their addictions -- natural, organic defense strategies living in "civilized" cultures such as those modern humankind has evolved into.

My life was about to change!

More to come, as Anastasia now approaches her first book writing milestone for "Camelot Disrupted: Book One - Lost Hope Regained."

Follow Anastasia's "adventure of a lifetime" as it unfolds.

Thinking About Feelings. Feeling About Thinking.

 Coming soon.

Under construction.

It was December, 2019. Covid-19 and the word, pandemic, were not yet in our lexicon. 

"Northern California wildfires" were, however, a newsworthy phrase that, though we were safe from these tragedies on the east coast, had become an almost daily personal threat.

I had one of my four "honorary" daughters, Taylor, and a boy and a girl godchildren twins out there. Every day. Sometimes moment by moment, ceaseless text messages were filling my inbox.

Taylor was terrified, overwrought -- and -- potentially suicidal. On top of that, her messages were driving me a bit crazy, I felt at times. Certainly they were not only keeping me constantly alert but STRESSED more than I could healthfully manage.

Survival Of The Fittest: What Does That Mean In Modern America?

 COMING SOON!

How Two Schools Of Thought On Emotions Divide Our Congress As Well As Our Most Intimate Relationships

Under construction now.

Ever wondered how a McDonnell or Barr or Marjorie whatever got to be like THAT!!

Or maybe you know others like THAT personally?

If your answer is "YES" to either or both above, what are YOU doing to help change the toxic dynamic?

As this blog (and the other two related) rolls out it's new directions, pre-book publication, circa 2022 (After publication we may again revise.) --- a major intent of all will be to help provide you with viable pathways for "transforming the dark side" yourself and in each and every venue you can hope to influence.

That's your job from here forth, if you are a follower of the blogs I write. If ever the idea of being a socia INFLUENCER, we'll be showing you how, on a one to one level -- over time.

That's what I/we "want" from you. That's what matters for me/us in providing the materials of this blog.

Let's start with the "why" behind what I write hete

The fact that there are two main schools of thought on emotions that might be considered central when trying to understand the divisiveness of our Congress -- might lead some of us to explore some new and improved options for approaching some of our near ceaseless deadlocked situations in that arena and right back into your backyard your living room -- and your bedroom.

Curious? Read on.

For an expanded discussion on how to and what to do we will return later. NH ZOP has plans in the making, our drop in the bucket strategies, now in progress.

Long time coming.

For now our objectives are still in the blueprint stage. Our focus directed to the notion that...

One school of thought holds that our emotions are essential guideposts for daily living. That's the perspective most apt to contribute to genuine problem solving, problem solving taking in human essentials at their most comprehensive.

Much like buying into the need for masking, social distancing and VACCINATIONS to fight off the spread of covid-19.

The other school of thought on emotions postures that emotions are bothersome aspects of humanity that must done away with as quickly as possible. The constituent denying mask mandates of Governor Ron DeSantis of Florida are an example of this.

Your concerns that your child might contract the covid-19 virus while attending school simply do not exist.

As many of us recognize, particularly adherents of the first school, all sorts of communication breakdowns and hostility are bred from this dissonance of perspective.

What might this mean? And how might the facts of the matter be reconciled?

In Transactional Analysis (TA) we call the circumstances that  bring this divisiveness about DISCOUNTING, the process of minimizing or ignoring data that is relevant to an individual, a situation or the solving of a problem. 

Gaslighting is one extreme example of this phenomenon called discounting. In this scenario, a conscious, determined effort to dismiss what another person's emotions and judgment hold to be true, is made with the intention of undermining the other's person's confidence and reliance on their own personal perceptions.

Most discounting is unconscious, however. The initiator, typically unaware of the process in motion. We all do this some of the time, even the most conscientious of us, devoted to our complete-as-possible devotion to fact finding.

Conversely, at its most extreme, discounting is the manifestation of psychosis. 

More frequently, discountiing goes on behind the lying and denial we see today, prevalent in our culture, used, most destructivly as justification for violence, along with other deviousness.

"How do people get this way?" Groder puzzled over the prisoners he worked with in his early days at Marion Federal Penetentiery, leading to his establishing the Asklepeion Therapeutic Community there, eventally known to have the lowest recidivism rate in federal corrections, circa late 1960s.

If I were to ask him again, as I did back in the early '80s, "How do our politicians get this way?, he'd probably tell me again, as he did before --

"Convicts and High Leadership People" (HLP) often have the same basic personality structure. However the former, the convicts, play out the dramas of their lives with antisocial rules, grounded in ignoring only the most useful of information, while the former, the HLPs, play by commonly accepted social rules. In this way, they are rewarded by society.

Gains not necessarily made ethically. But so what? Eh?

When we incorporate our GRAD theory into the mix regarding emotions, we open the door to a deeper understanding of this phenomenon and the lethal, mortally wounding effect "discounting" can potentially have, especially as part of a larger pattern. 

In my unpublished manuscripts, my Random House Trilog, I discuss these phenomena at length and how to reverse the negative patterns.

Conversely, how healthful, liberating, empowering, even personally and collectively transforming, are the wide-range of antithetical pathways for humanity available to us, once we know where to seek.

I want to explore this POWERFUL and PROFOUND notion with you on the two schools of emotions. And how utilizing the information we are offering can turn your life to the good, better, best!

My new fantasy/historical fiction book, Camelot Disrupted, Book One, Lost Hope Regained, due out in 2022???, will depict what I/we are suggesting that can help turn up the positive volume for you of your life's satisfaction and your relationships and tone down the negative, even way down!

In time, if you heed: your good sense, the wisdom of your own emotional intelligence and the wisdom, expertise and guidance I, personally, and we, the board members and active retreat center and community members of NH ZOP, have to offer through our programs, projects and extensive, personally-tailored, collection of road maps for the journey.

We'll have you soaring in no time, provided you do your part. And stay healthy!!

More on the way.

But I'll give this one piece in the meantime ---

GRODER WAS A FIRM BELIEVER IN THE NOTION THAT THE PROBLEMS IN OUR CONGRESS COULD -- MOST IMPACT FULLY BE RESOLVED IN THE --- BEDROOM!!

Not on the steps, as some like Marjorie..would have it.

What do you think about that?

“Original Elite” —Mss Study Group Class Part One -- Culminates With Life Saving Success!

Also read:  Anastasia Commenting On Taylor: "I Was Afraid She Was Going To Kill Herself"

We are amazing!

Pandemic syndrome symptoms plaguing you?

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Feeling agitated, driven by fear and urgency, mental fogginess, lack of motivation, unfinished – not yet even begun -- GRIEF healing -- resentment, isolation- threatened by civic unrest and violence and on and on – in the era of the pandemic and Trump?

Consider this ...

Taylor (not her real name), a long-term NH/ZOP Board and community member, was still, three years after, struggling to manage and heal from one of the Northern California wildfires of 2018 that had consumed her home, leaving only a pile of ashes where the marriage and family life she had once worked so diligently to create, were also part of the rubble. 

Emotional devastation, hopelessness, despair and suicidal ideation were never far from her mind.

In February, 2020, just weeks before covid-19 pandemic lockdowns was mandated, I, unknowing of what lay ahead, set out to guide Taylor through Part 1/10 of my unpublished Random House Trilogy  to help her save her life.

My belief was that if I could teach her to healthfully deal with her intense, survival-driven emotions and acting out behaviors, I thought I could help her turn her life around.

FYI: Thinking clearly about emotions, especially those telated to survival threats, real or imagined, generally feels as life-threatening as emotions can be!

Often they are experienced as terrifying, to be avoided, minimized, denied or repressed. Anything to get away from them.

Learning to " think about these feelings, feel the truth of what you are thinking and manage them effectively was quite the challenge I hoped to help Taylor surmount.

When we began, Taylor could do none of this.

Actually, as a pandemic survivor, you too probably already know about this difficulty yourself, and/or are learnng, more or less effectivly, that living under constant concerns for survival, as people are doing world-wide, can be pretty terrifying for real.

So how do YOU or I manage it?

Especially when the imminent threat is gone but you still feel TERRIFIED, as did Taylor for three, long, harrowimg years.

Almost FROZEN with fear, confusion and anguish!

Now, the NH ZOP Board Members who made up this "Original, Elite Mss Study Group" with Taylor are celebrating and, alongside her, developing skill in this area. 

Mastery will still take time. 

Imagine how incredibly life changing this has been for all of us!

Especially these past eighteen months!

That's also the story about how we came to title one of our next important initiatives, The Mindful Cult Of GRAD.

It was those feelings: fear, terror, loss, abandonment and rage for starters -- that seemed most apt to derail Tayloe.

And, of course, that same bundle of hard to manage, pandemic-evoked emotions challenges most of us.

Now -- get this -Taylor ASSURES ME - eighteen months after her having completed what I intended to be only a  five or six week class/study group that continued for all the eighteen months of the pandemic -- We Won!!

Begun just !! two weeks prior to our initial covid-19 pandemic lockdown March 16 -- the combination of this class and our twice weekly Pandemic Survivors Support Group, NOT ONLY SAVED Taylor's Life-- as I set out to do, but additionally, with her diligence, courage and trust in me, built on our 31 year!! relationship -- I was able to succesfully guide her to put her life on a path of ascending to BE and DO her best possible.

And, to even learn to enjoy life again.

WOW!! 

All that during the pandemic as we, along with everyone else is and was fighting to come through severe adversity.

So, as of last Friday -- 

I am pleased and proud to announce I graduated Compassionate Warrior Woman In Training, My Taylor!!

Look for details on how you, too, can now qualify for participation in the NH/ZOP Mss Study Group Class, Part II, beginning this week, Friday, September 3, 10 a.m. to noon.

For additional information on our Mss Study Groups/Classes and other projects, contact us at: MountainWomanRJ@aol.com.

More to come.

If A Mindful Cult (Of GRAD) Can Exist, We Are It!

Answer, Short Form: 
With a lot of help from our friends.

Coming Soon!

But Where Are The Men?

And, if we be "IT," we want you to know all about us and how you, too, can find your way out of the "dark." 

Be it the Mindless Cult of --Trump OOPS!!! -- my bad -- I meant the Cult of the Dark Side, the darkness of the pandemic, or the darkness within yourself, we've got a method for moving beyond.

Check us out. Here's a place to start --

 "How Did We Get Here, Part I?" 

More to come.

Can The Word "Cult" Be Used Other Than Referencing "Dark" Doings

Update in progress (9.27.21)

My answer is YES! 

My NH ZOP Board Members, on the other hand, aren't quite so sure. Their same reservation goes for my use of the word "counterculture."

"Expect pushback, says Taylor, if you are going to be using those words in hopes the general public will grasp the uniqueness and awesomeness of what we have been doing for decades and are doing now."

Wikipedia suggests scholars consider both these words, cult and counterculture, various usages to be controversial. I am aware of the potential -- and -- remain undaunted.  I am choose to use these words to provocatively make our anti-dark side project a bit noisier than its been for awhile -- and -- noticeable!

To Taylor I respond -- "Simply asked, Taylor, do you think I would be going to all the trouble I am presently, if I didn't want to be noticed! 

That's my "new gig," so to speak, I tell her, redirecting "My authentic self is invisible to the naked eye -- and I'm going to keep it that way!!!" script and survival script -- as per GRAD theory -- I've been living onto a new path.

Script-free! And, believe me I've earned this accolade!

So there you have it!

My board members and I discuss the issues at hand here. We will want to explore the subject further, more in-depth and offer our various rationales for using these words or not. 

Herein lies the potential for an enlightening conversation and we dig in to it energetically, assured that each one's view will be respected. If cult-like can be used to describe the passion of our discussion, we are certainly displaying its positive attributes.

Here's another angle in favor of my use of the word.

A cult can refer to a group of followers or supporters who are highly dedicated -- we are that!! -- to a piece of artwork.

Yes! What we are doing through our Mindful Cult of GRAD is a work of art!

I think this is what I hold as a vision for our community-based, beautifully crafted approach to how to fix what presently ails our country and the folks that comprise it by creating and working to sustain small "zones of peace" through our various projects and programs. 

One further comment. Then I rest my case:

Most commonly, according to wikipedia, a cult is a social group typically defined by its unusual .. philosophical beliefs, or by its common interest in a particular ...goal. 

Well, we certainly are that a group defined by a most unusual perspective:

Trust in one another and in our group to each have the "courage" to keep talking truth to power, truth to one another.

The words which we find most commonality are --

Affliliation, movement and group

Amy Ryan (2000) has argued for the need to differentiate those groups that may be dangerous from groups that are more benign.^[15] Ryan notes the sharp differences between definitions offered by cult opponents, who tend to focus on negative characteristics, and those offered by sociologists, who aim to create definitions that are value-free. The movements themselves may have different definitions of religion as well.^[16

End of subject.

We are to be: The Mindful Cult of GRAD and proud to be!

But What Is The Cult Of GRAD?

Also see: Work (Mostly)  From Home -- With Anastasia

And how can it help YOU stand up to the Dark Side?

You will want to know -- and - we will want to "tell" you more of the awe of our adventure, as I've (Anastasia) lived it, along with many of my students and supporters. My new book in progress, Camelot Disrupted: Book One, Lost Hope Regained, due out Fall, 2022, will take you on a fantasy adventure of what it means and is like to devise a life path based on the principles of GRAD.

But alas, our adventure cannot be known by the mere "telling -- and -- even in fantasy, the story can not be told in full of the living it, until the book is ready. Still the real deal is known through the DOING, the experience, the living it, the BEING it.

This is our challenge here -- how to translate, for your understanding, transforming experiences on the level of the body, the mind and the spirit.

We are contemplating the subject of it now.

That's why I'm writing this, worrying some about the doing of the description, Mindful Cult of GRAD.

3:30 a.m. Sunday morning.

11:30 a.m. Sunday morning

I am standing back, looking at the complexity of the topic here and considering options about how best, now, to use this blog site to meet unfolding objectives. 

Maybe one or both of my/our Blog Talk Radio shows?  

In online discussions you can join?

With myself and what NH ZOP has now defined as our permanent Council Of Elders? 

(Meaning those of us on our Board of Directors who made it through the pandemic year past (one, Lisa Boyer, now deceased from ovarian cancer)?

In an almost miraculous fete of collective resilience, support, love and transformation, given the circumstances of each one of us and the pandemic, as our backdrop. we are here now to pass on the gifts.  

The principles of our GRAD theory practiced in the exceptional community approach that has gotten our small group of NH/ZOP dedicated members through our pandemic ordeal are a remarkable example of people working together, body, mind and spirit, to survive as winners through our pandemic ordeal.

We wish we could make it easy to follow us. We will definitely keep trying because we know that what we discovered through the pandemic, in the amazing way we have been able to manage it is something you are likely to want too, for your own.

You just keep reading. We;ll keep writing and soon speaking out more. After awhile we'll find our ways to one another, if we're going the same direction -- with a dedication to truth telling and truth listening at our basr.

More to come.

Replacing The Mindless Cult Of The Dark Side

With the Mindful Cult Of GRAD 

Under Construction

Welcome To The World Of GRAD 

An adventure in learning how to live by the principles of our Truth or Dare GAME and our exceptional community approach to "longevity and well-being", especially in times of "survival" stakes, if they fit for you.

 The members of the NH/ZOP Board of Directors developed a unique synergy, applying these principles and practices, up against the pandemic.

Our net gain: Emotional, spiritual and relationship health, gratitude and much more.

Find out the more!

Coming soon -- a menu of opportunities for traveling with us.

YOUR entry point:  

1. Take and score our "Where Is Your Compassionate Warrior Hiding? inventory;

2. If your score on this imventory is "59" or less, you may qualify to be vetted for one of our currently very limited Pandemic Survivors Support Group spaces, attend our Mss Study Group or play in our Truth or Dare GAME.

3. Contact a NH ZOP Board Members to arrange for your qualifying opportunity @ MountainWomanRJ@aol.com

All potential, new participants in our programs and events are heavily vetted for likemindedness, particularly regarding each having a strong investment in truth, reconciliation and healing, i.e. personal transformation through conflict resolution, one of our key requirements.

YOUR Next Step:

A personal one on one conversation with Anastasia, tailored especially for your objectives, wants and needs.

Under construction

Look for details on how you can obtain 
our "travelers' guidebook" (original version} pictured above

Mss Study Group Series Plan Replaced With Auditing Opportunity

Update: August 21, 2021

Plans for a Mss Study Group Series to be offered to the general public have been replaced, for the time being, with auditing opportunities for vetted candidates. (Details and further information, contact us at: MountainWomanRJ@aol.com). 

Hear our amazing "Elite" Mss Study Group live, as our board member participants take on their biggest pandemic emotional hurdles and support one another in our amazing "Mss Study Group" that has been our strength throughout the pandemic crisis.

We have no idea how we could have survived without one another to help get us through one ordeal after another.

Begun only weeks before quarantining, lockdowns, masks and social distancing, we discovered, as we became weekly traveling companions on an adventure through the pandemic, aided by the wisdom of the entire collection of my unpublished Random House Trilogy, a pandemic survivors equivalent of a trip tik, an emotional and practical how-to manual, in fact, plus the author who wrote it, me, to help guide us through. 

Thus, we began a journey that may well last our life times, boosted by our twice weekly Pandemic Survivors Support Group.

Here's how it began.....

It was early February (2020) when, surfacing out of the depths of my generally overlooked, vintage steamer trunk, my “Random House Trilogy" rose up like an undersea nymph, beckoning hands holding out the precious details of my life's work that serendipitously contained within its pages a series of detailed detailed instructions on how to move beyond the very survival-oriented challenges we faced at that time and still continue to do so for the foreseeable future.

For more than two decades, thousands of pages laying out my earliest attempts to be a storyteller and the wide-ranging research and clinical treatment strategies of my twenty-five plus years work as a psychotherapist. 

Quietly, without my being consciously aware of their separating from me, they had settled themselves into the depths of that trunk, mostly out of sight out of mind (for others, not me personally). 

Now, almost magically, these pages had resurfaced, just a few short weeks before covid-19 brought our lives, as we had known them, to a screeching halt.

The pandemic had come, quarantining was upon us, crisis and chaos surrounded us on all sides.

But here, in the midst, came a collection of unpublished manuscripts with a definitive formula about how to SURVIVE well, under undue pressure and stress.

A step-by-step manual on surviving as a winner, mentally healthfully, even through life-threatening ordeals, such as the pandemic and the political corruption now tearing our country apart, as a winner -- 

Winning intended to mean being an individual of character, of high moral ethics, mental clarity, truthfulness, compassion and integrity, at the top of the list. A person who seeks opportunities, lessons and gifts to aid personal growth and development out of circumstances that might defeat others.

Not a Donald Trump or anyone like him!

Into the midst of this came “Anastasia’s Random House Trilogy,” buried twenty years and more, nearly out of sight, and NOW --  more than ready to fly free to points and places calling out for the wisdom contained within, high-powered, beautiful words I had written decades ago 

They were ready to soar, with heightened meaning, richly aged, maturing as they had been doing all these many years.

Now -- time for the teachings of these pages, primed to go full-front public, to come out of hiding, to do the good that was always their intent!

Not thirty years ago (1990) when book #1 Suriving Addictions: Transforming The Rebellious Inner Child was in progress. 

Not twenty-five years ago, when I wrote Journey Back To Me (1995), a treatise on my personal applications and transformation through these teachings of Marty Groder's and mine.

And, lastly, not even twenty-two years ago when my final round of editing for Exploring Your Dark Side: The Adventure Of A Lifetime, the namesake of this blog site, was aborted due to my losing my eyesight (1998).

No! None of these!

2020 forward in the midst of crises is to be their coming out, their destiny.

I don’t know yet how to tell you of the adventure the opening of this vintage trunk and the bringing out of its contents has brought to the Board Members of the New Horizons/Small “Zones of Peace” organization and myself through our new Mss Elite Study Group that has now evolved out of a most surprising study adventure.

I can, however, tell you that the exploration, now pledged by each one of us, to continue until death do us part, for me to interpret and guide the entire collection with my board members, has brought us to be deeply bonded traveling companions on a journey none of us anticipated at the onset. 

February 28 was the date these devoted board members of mine first came together to be instructed, briefly by me on the first five chapter (out of approximately forty-five chapters total) of my complete collection, a gift I had designed especially to emotionally fortify Board Member Terry who had lost her home and all its contents. In one of Northern California fires. 

With an aching heart I had watched her struggling, two years later, to recover her former stamina, mental health-wise and practically, from the Carr Fire (2018) that had brought such devastation to her life.  

The very first Mss Study Group lifted each of us, with exhilaration, though we hadn’t yet set our schedule for Mss Study Group #2. Before we got that far, however. came the pandemic and quarantining with life taking on new ways of doing and being. 

Simultaneously those of my board members who had opted to study these tomes with me, quickly realized that here in this Mss Study Group, in the midst of the pandemic, we had in our collective hands, written by my own, personally, a tried and true formula on how to survive well and even thrive through troubled times like these.

Audited attendance at a Mss Study Group, from here forward, will also be a prerequisite for our Pandemic Survivors Support Groups and our Truth Or Dare GAME.

Soon, very soon, we are going to soon start sharing our know-how and abundance with you.

Details coming soon.

Mss Study Group #1: Discussion Overview

In the interest of sharing the journey of our very special "Mss Study Group," the following notes are offered as they will be presented for discussion in Mss Study Group #1, to be held on Friday, February 28, 2020.

Update: March 1, 2020

Here is a brief report on how our first Mss Study Group turned out.

It is our hope and our intent that the whole of our discussion will be recorded and can then be made available either by recording, download or transcript. We will keep our online readers updated on details.

In the event that our plans are successful, you may be able to look forward to copies of the original, unedited manuscript becoming available through our New Horizons/Small "Zones of Peace" eBay store, should we believe it to be of benefit, along with recordings etc. of our discussions.

Surviving (Adrenalin) Addictions: Transforming The Rebellious/Survivor Inner Child, 

Chapter One: Overview, Circa 1991

Surviving (Adrenalin) Addictions: Transforming The Rebellious/Survivor Inner Child, circa 1991, was written, originally for the addiction recovery genre, with an emphasis on non-ingested chemical addictions (i.e. relationship and personality addictions) with a special focus on the collusion between the passive addict, or co-dependent personality, and the aggressive or power addicted personality. 

This original text, virtually unedited, begins in Chapter One with a discussion of the rampant personal alienation most addict-types experience that thrusts the underlying forces of their addict-function living into the overdrive of survival instincts out of control.

Taking issue with the commonly held view that chemical addiction is solely-based on a disease, Ms. Rosen-Jones and her former mentor, psychiatrist Martin G. Groder, M.D., the original architect of the Groder-Rosen Addiction Development theory (GRAD), seek to establish an alternative, biologically-based perspective for understanding what the GRAD theory identifies as a survivor/addict personality that, in their shared opinion, offers a differing perspective regarding the diagnosis and treatment planning for this personality type that may be regarded as more of a health model rather than a disease model.

The Prologue

Drafted, initially, when Ms. Rosen-Jones was in her mid-forties the "Prologue" presents a picture of a rather naive Marcia/Anastasia, albeit a budding and brilliant scholar, that held Dr. Groder in such high esteem as to have, unfortunately, positioned her for the power abuse and sexual harassment by Dr. Groder that was to, eventually lead the Groder-Rosen collaboration to its painful demise in 1990, eventually resulting in Ms Rosen-Jones filing an ethics charges in 2018 regarding these inappropriate and damaging actions on his part with the International Transactional Analysis Association (ITAA) of which they were both members, Dr. Groder as Marcia/Anastasia's supervisor, she as his trainee.


The Prologue, while rather embarrassing to me (Anastasia) at this late date, is of note today, from a historical perspective, given the commencement of Ms Rosen-Jones' student-teacher relationship with Dr. Groder while she was in her 39th year when it began and he was already internationally known as an ITAA Teaching Member as well as a prominent expert for his work in establishing the Asklepeion Therapeutic Community Model within the Federal Corrections system (Scroll down on the wikipedia page to section on U.S.). 

Based on its historical benefit, more will be discussed and noted here, regarding the Prologue as discussion unfolds in the Mss Study Group.

Mss Study Group Announces: Surviving The U.S.A., Original Unedited Version

This coming Friday, Part one of the ten parts that make up the whole of my (Anastasia's) still unpublished Random House Trilogy, will start on its way to, at last, being published, hopefully in 2022. The initial phase will start off with the New Horizons/Small "Zones Of Peace" Board of Directors, also known as the Elite Truth Or Dare GAME players (i.e. the Truth Squad) working with me (Anastasia) from here forward to accomplish this end by studying, discussing, applying and updating my original Random House manuscript, new working title SURVIVING THE USA, Circa 2016 -- Fwd, with a very special Mss Study Group.

Preliminary discussions among us suggest that what we will endeavor to do will be rich and rewarding in its process, personally and on behalf of the two non-profit organizations I have founded, New Horizons Support Network, Inc. and the Small “Zones of Peace” Inc.

Given that I have always assumed that if forward progress was to be made on this aborted publishing project of mine, due to my becoming blind in 1998 through 2006, just as I was in the final phase of editing for release, I envisioned the effort as a completely solo act on my part. So, my board members  unexpectedly joining me, is quite the blessing!

For now, while we will keep our eyes on our intended destination, hard copy publication, we will not neglect to luxuriate in the magnificence the process will bring us. Our intentions will, however, never veer away from our more altruistic motivation to offer from a certain knowledge base, all of that which has gone into the development and application of the GRAD theory, developed initially by Marty Groder and expanded beyond by myself, Anastasia.

While we are setting off  on the adventure of our Mss Study Group,  board members will be considering if and how we might share both our journey and the original, unedited manuscript in the service of benefiting our interested online readers and other followers of our New Horizons/Small "Zones of Peace" programs and projects.